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  Dedication

  For all of the readers

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Friendssssssss

  Gabrielle, Mom

  Ivy, Gabrielle

  Friendssssssss

  Prianka, Sage

  Gabrielle, Mom

  Friendssssssss

  Victoria, Mom

  Friendssssssss

  Friendssssssss

  Mara, Cecily

  Victoria, Mom

  Vishal, Prianka

  BFFs

  Gabrielle, Ivy

  Cecily, Mara

  Positive Vibes

  More Positive Vibes

  The Squad

  Prianka, Sage

  The Squad

  Vishal, Prianka

  The Squad

  Cecily, Mom

  The Squad Forever

  Prianka, Sage

  Woo!!!!!

  BFFs

  Gabrielle, Miriam

  Squad Forever

  Gabrielle, Prianka

  BFFs

  Quick Side Chat

  Squad 4 Life

  Gabrielle, Mom

  Squad 4 Life

  Victoria, Mom

  Squad 4 Life

  Cecily, Mom

  Squad 4 Life

  My Loves

  The Crew 4life

  The Crew 4life

  I Love You Guys

  Vishal, Prianka

  Friendssssssssssssssss

  Friendssssssssssssssss

  Best Friends Forever

  Best Friends Forever

  Glossary

  Acknowledgments

  Excerpt from11 Before 12

  About the Author

  Books by Lisa Greenwald

  Back Ad

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  YORKVILLE MIDDLE SCHOOL

  Yorkville Middle School Text Alert: Today is a SNOW DAY! All Yorkville schools are closed, and after-school activities and meetings are canceled. Stay warm & dry!

  Friendssssssss

  VICTORIA

  OMGGGGGGGGG

  SNOW DAYYYYYYYYYY

  CECILY

  Woo

  GABRIELLE

  Sooooooo happy

  NO MATH TEST FOR ME

  PRIANKA

  Guyssssss

  I went back to bed & u all just woke me up

  Blarrrggghhhhhhh

  VICTORIA

  Sorry, Pri

  GABRIELLE

  Can we all go sledding @ the golf course later?

  VICTORIA

  Oooh yeah!

  VICTORIA

  Will beg my mom to let me go

  PRIANKA

  LOL, Vic

  What is she scared of

  It’s sledding not bungee jumping

  VICTORIA

  Ugghhhhh I don’t even know

  CECILY

  I’ll see about sledding

  May stay cozy @

  VICTORIA

  Blargh, Cece

  CECILY

  Gonna go make breakfast

  Ttyl

  Gabrielle, Mom

  MOM

  Gabs?

  Are you up?

  GABRIELLE

  Yes

  Hi

  MOM

  Mrs. Minkin is worried about slipping on the snow when she has to take Elroy out. Can you help her take him out?

  GABRIELLE

  Ok

  Give me 10 min

  Don’t want to get up

  MOM

  I think he has to pee

  Come now, please

  Will be a mitzvah

  GABRIELLE

  Ok

  Coming

  MOM

  Love you

  Dear Diary,

  Hi, it’s me, Cecily. I think I should come up with a better name for you since you’re brand-new. Thank you, Ingrid, for this fab Christmas gift. Don’t know why I’m thanking her here since she can’t see this (AT LEAST I HOPE SHE WON’T SEE THIS!) but anyway.

  So, hmmm. Where to start? Well, the thing is, I still have feelings for Mara. Sometimes they go away or maybe they’re just in the back of my mind when I’m busy but then when I see her for a long span of time or talk to her, I feel like I like her again.

  She just looks at me in a different way than anyone else. And I can’t explain it; I just want to be near her. I mean, I know I bailed on the summer trip with her, and I felt bad about it but it was the right decision. But now I like her all over again.

  UGGG!!!

  I never want to text first because I hate waiting around for her to text back. It stresses me out waiting for those three dots that show she’s typing.

  This is a depressing way to start you, my new beautiful journal, but what can I do?

  Here’s some happy news, though: TODAY IS A SNOW DAY! SO WOO! Maybe she’ll come sledding . . .

  Xoxoxo Cecily

  Ivy, Gabrielle

  IVY

  Gabs! Do you have a snow day today?

  GABRIELLE

  YES! You?

  IVY

  Yessssssssssss

  I miss you sooooooo much

  I wish we lived closer

  How many more days until summerrrrrrr camp

  GABRIELLE

  Ha too many

  IVY

  How are you my love

  GABRIELLE

  Eh

  I’m ok

  IVY

  Just ok?

  GABRIELLE

  Well school is still sooooo hard

  I just don’t feel like I have “my thing.”

  Ya know?

  IVY

  Ummmmm

  No idea what u mean

  For real

  GABRIELLE

  Ha ok. Like, everyone has something they’re passionate about. And I don’t have that. I don’t have my one thing that I’m really good at

  IVY

  Oh yeah

  Hmmmmm

  Well you gotta explore your passions

  GABRIELLE

  I know

  Duh LOL

  What’s your passion?

  IVY

  Ummmm learning about other countries I think

  GABRIELLE

  Hmmmm. See! That’s cool

  IVY

  I’ll help u find your thing

  GABRIELLE

  K thanx

  Gotta go

  Going sledding

  IVY

  K have fun

  Friendssssssss

  GABRIELLE

  On my way 4 sledding!

  CECILY

  Same!

  PRIANKA

  Me too

  So glad you’re joining, Cece!

  VICTORIA

  Yaaaayyyyyyy

  I had to FOR REAL beg my mom to let me go sledding

  Like the most begging ever

  SOOOO ANNOYING

  VICTORIA

  Anyway whatever

  Bundle up!

  From: National Teen Poetry Competition

  To: Prianka Basak

  Subject: Congratulations!

  Dear Ms. Basak:

  We are pleased to share that your poem, “Follow the Wind,” is the third-place winner in this year’s National Teen Poetry Competition, sponsored by Poets Magazine. More information will follow shortly about the awards ceremony.

  Best wishes & congratulations!

  Samuel F. Kingsley

  National Teen Poetry Competition, Chairman

  Prianka, Sage

  SAGE

  Did u get the email

  PRIANKA

  Yesssssssss

  SAGE

  I�
��m so sad

  PRIANKA

  Oh no

  SAGE

  They thanked me for entering but I didn’t win

  Not even like 8th place

  Did you

  PRIANKA

  Ummmm

  SAGE

  ???

  PRIANKA

  I actually came in 3rd place

  SAGE

  Wow

  Congrats

  PRIANKA

  Are you sledding today

  SAGE

  No

  I gotta go

  PRIANKA

  Xoxoxo

  Gabrielle, Mom

  MOM

  Hi, Gabs. Hope you’re having fun sledding. Please be careful! Also, Elroy needs a walk again when you get home. Thanks for helping out. Love you.

  GABRIELLE

  K, Mom, but why can’t you take Elroy out?

  MOM

  Gabrielle. Don’t be rude.

  Friendssssssss

  VICTORIA

  Guys, has anyone seen Colin & Jared?

  Their friends say they’re missing

  Every time we go down the hill we get all spread out

  Where is everyone

  Totally freaking out

  Victoria, Mom

  MOM

  You left your laptop on

  I can see your texts on your computer

  Concerned about kids missing

  Are you ok?

  Were the kids found

  Are you ok?

  Victoria, hello?

  Answer me now

  Missed call from: Mom

  Missed call from: Mom

  Missed call from: Mom

  VICTORIA

  Mom. Stop.

  Just because my computer is open does not mean you need to snoop

  Calm down

  I’m fine.

  Friendssssssss

  GABRIELLE

  Sorry just saw this

  I know u sent forever ago

  They were found

  Went to ice skate in boots on lake

  GABRIELLE

  Dummies

  Now videoing people going down the hill

  So lame

  And my mom keeps calling me to check in

  Where r u guys now

  Friendssssssss

  CECILY

  Hiiiii

  Who wants to meet me @ top of hill for one last run

  Then walk

  PRIANKA

  Coming

  Was with Vishal

  I love him again BTW

  GABRIELLE

  LOL

  Hi

  Where is Vic now

  VICTORIA

  Hi

  I’m home

  My mom picked me up

  GABRIELLE

  Omg why

  VICTORIA

  UGH

  VICTORIA

  Worst thing ever

  Will explain later

  GABRIELLE

  R u ok

  VICTORIA

  Yeah can’t talk

  CECILY

  K who is meeting me and walking home?

  Freezing

  PRIANKA

  Me

  Coming

  GABRIELLE

  Same

  Mara, Cecily

  MARA

  OMG, Cece

  Are u back yet

  CECILY

  Hi

  Yes

  Just got back from sledding

  I need to thaw out lol

  MARA

  Did you see what happened

  Wayyyyy glad I stayed home

  CECILY

  Ummm

  CECILY

  IDKWYM

  MARA

  So Mae & Marisa went sledding

  I stayed home

  Duh

  Anyway

  Marisa flipped her sled over and into this snowbank ditch FACE-FIRST

  And the front of her snow pants totally ripped open!

  Jared video’d it & posted and zillions of people have seen it already

  He used hashtag #MaRIPa

  CECILY

  WHAT

  CECILY

  Like she died?!?!?

  MARA

  NOOOOO

  Because of her ripped pants

  CECILY

  Ohhhhhh

  I knew he was recording all the stuff but I didn’t hear about Marisa

  I just got home

  That’s ridic

  How is she doing

  MARA

  CRYING nonstop

  Miserable

  MARA

  Her mom already left a message for Mr. C

  CECILY

  OMG

  I feel so bad

  I didn’t see it happen

  And obv I’m not on social media

  Blargh

  MARA

  Anyway

  Wanted to tell u

  CECILY

  K

  MARA

  Did Vic say anything to you about it

  CECILY

  Umm no

  Not yet anyway

  MARA

  I think her mom saw it on social media before anyone else

  CECILY

  What really?????

  MARA

  Yeah

  So nutty

  Mae said Vic’s mom came to pick her up right away

  CECILY

  Wow

  I know she got picked up early but I didn’t know why

  CECILY

  OMG

  I gotta go warm up, tho

  Too cold to text

  MARA

  Bye

  Call me later

  Victoria, Mom

  MOM

  Victoria, get down here this instant

  Now

  MOM

  You must understand that when I see these texts and the horrible sledding posts come up on your social media feeds, I must act. It is my job to keep you safe.

  I do not read your texts all the time, but when you’re off on your own, I have to stay informed on what you are doing.

  VICTORIA

  NO YOU DON’T

  You don’t trust me

  MOM

  I do not trust the other kids

  VICTORIA

  You made a whole scene at sledding

  I am sooooooo embarrassed

  I refuse to talk to you

  Vishal, Prianka

  VISHAL

  Pri!!!!!

  I KNOW I JUST SAW YOU BUT I AM SO PUMPED 4 U

  PRIANKA

  Pls stop typing in all caps

  But thank you

  VISHAL

  You’re so talented

  PRIANKA

  LOL I am!!!!

  VISHAL

  Hahahahahahahah

  Can I take you out to celebrate

  PRIANKA

  Is this real or a joke?

  VISHAL

  Real!

  PRIANKA

  Ok, prob not in the snow, tho

  VISHAL

  LOL I know

  Let’s go to Jennie’s!!!

  Do you know they have burrata stuffed with burrata now?

  PRIANKA

  Really

  VISHAL

  Yes!

  PRIANKA

  K I’m in

  VISHAL

  PRIANKA

  VISHAL

  Oh wait

  PRIANKA

  ??

  VISHAL

  Did u see what happened @ sledding w/ Victoria and her mom

  PRIANKA

  IDKWYM

  VISHAL

  She got picked up early after the whole #MaRIPa thing

  PRIANKA

  I missed this completely

  What is #MaRIPa

  Brb fone dying

  Need to charge it

  BFFs

  PRIANKA

  Guys anyone there

  My fone has been dead for like 2 hours

  It wouldn�
�t charge

  Need to tell you 2 big things

  PRIANKA

  Also want to check in on Vic

  GABRIELLE

  Hi

  Just got back from walking my neighbor’s dog

  AGAIN

  I asked my mom why she can’t help and she says some responsibility is good for me

  PRIANKA

  Lol sounds like a mom

  GABRIELLE

  Vic r u ok??

  CECILY

  Hi

  VICTORIA

  I am fine

  Thank u for the s’mores kit, Cece

  GABRIELLE

  Yeah! Thanks!

  PRIANKA

  Ditto!

  VICTORIA

  What are the 2 big things, Pri?

  PRIANKA

  Welllllllll

  First of allllllll

  .............

  GABRIELLE

  Spill it, Pri!

  PRIANKA

  K

  I came in 3rd place in the national teen poetry competition!

  There’s an awards ceremony & everything!

  Maybe u can all come

  Think it may be in Fla, though!

  Maybe surprise Disney trip!

  VICTORIA

  Oooohhh

  PRIANKA

  Soooo that’s one fab thing

  GABRIELLE

  GO, PRI

  CECILY

  Soooooo awesome, Pri!

  PRIANKA

  And the other thing . . .

  Vishal kind of asked me out like on a real date

  CECILY

  What????

  PRIANKA

  He wants to take me to Jennie’s to celebrate the win

  GABRIELLE

  Omg soooooo cute

  Can’t believe u like him again

  After all the women’s day stuff LOL

  PRIANKA

  Well yeah

  But I taught him the error of his ways

  PRIANKA

  Such a dummy not understanding the importance of women’s day

  GABRIELLE

  True

  VICTORIA

  Has V Day dance been scheduled yet

  GABRIELLE

  I think so yea

  But with a community service element

  That’s the new key to everything @ school

  CECILY

  Planning meeting soon

  VICTORIA

  So Pri may have a real date for it?!?!

  PRIANKA

  Maybe but don’t go loony tunes, Vic, LOL

  VICTORIA

  Stop

  GABRIELLE

  What about u and Arjun, Vic?

  VICTORIA

  IDK we don’t talk so much lately

  Plus I doubt I will be able to go